Wednesday, February 16, 2011 ♥ 10:38 PM
back to blogging. only blog when i am ecstatic, emotional or just feel like.
well, i am officially single and available. :D just ended a love triangle. which makes me suffer so much through out this 1 year 3months and 16 days.
anyway this is for the one i once loved the most, NXW.
i can still recalled the first time we were together, the memories really lives in my head. it all started in a hospital, ended off with a bang.
you were the one i could really die for, and now, its over.
everything you do it really make an impact in my heart.
even though it doesnt cost much i dont mind, its the thought that count.
you two timed me twice despite being hurt deeply, and being advised to leave, i insist thinking you were the one for me.
i gave your whatever you need but i can never get your heart.
i just get hurt time and again.
hoping you will changed.
you promised you will
but then history repeat again
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i can remember how sweet our anniversary was.
i can also remember how deeply i was hurt too.
how much i love is how much hurt i will get.
the existence of her, just makes me lost control,
i never throw temper infront of your mum and i did it yesterday
i never cry infront of others and i cried loudly.
i never walked angrily and breakdown crying out loud.
i never hurt so badly till i wanted to end my life immediately.
i never did many things and you gave them to me.
you said i was being too demanding to check your wallet check your phone
but you never stand in my position to think that i was just trying to let myself feel secure
you never thought that i just want to reassure myself that you still love me
i always quarrel with you because i want your attention
but you think that i am being crazy like to make noise
but what you never thought of was i might knew something you dont want me to know
you say you dont know how to live without me
apparently you are breathing perfectly.
in this one year 3 months and 16 days i really did enjoy myself at the same time crying my soul out.
thanks for being there for me.
the one who once loved you,
georgina.E
