♥. digested-love.

Saturday, February 19, 2011 ♥ 9:29 PM

knowing its impossible, i will persevere. i know we can never be together anymore.

dont worry, i wast sad. i just feel wasted to let go all. haha but never mind.

maybe we just wasnt meant to be. its worth remembering.

how miracle i can give up everything less than a week.:D

although sometime seeing couples just remind me of us but i wont tear.

lets be strong together! i believe you can find someone way better than me.

as for me?! dont ask so much. haha because i wasnt even sure if i can take another blow like this:D

♥ 8:50 PM

朋友都告诉我他不值得，但是我心很乱！

我不知道他值不值得，我不知道自己想要些什么。

我只知道没了你，我就想个空壳。

别问我，我们之间还有可能吗，因为这不是我一个人的决定。

♥ 8:33 PM

when i saw you, i thought i could be brave and face you.

instead i choose to avoid. i ran away.

when you came in, my heart keep pounding. non stop at a high rate.

if you have the heart beat detector you will notice how high my heart rate is.

when i saw you are still wearing our necklace. my heart sank.

you are still wearing the shirt i gave. the necklace. the bottom? not sure. might be from me too.

sinking heart.

♥ 11:10 AM

IMY! do you?

♥ 10:49 AM

why do i easily let someone like her lose my trust on our love):

My heart is still hurting

I can’t hold in my tears

Even though I said I had already forgotten

Even if I try to lie to myself

Because I still can’t forget you

Like crazy, my tears are falling

At this rate I’ll go crazy

I miss living proudly. What should I do? My tears keep falling

What did I do wrong?

Why did we separate?

I don’t know the reason

I’m very furious. No matter how hard I try to forget you, in the end it’s still you

Even though I really don’t know the reason

No matter what I do will make you mad, right?

Because you’re always right and I’m always wrong

Let’s go back, stop my tears from falling

♥ 10:10 AM

you seems to be doing fine,

am i the only one stuck in the past?

you are walking away, leaving me,

while i am standing down there waiting for you

am i silly just to wait or i should just make a turn

and walk towards the other direction.

♥ 9:52 AM

every saturday, i would wake up with a purpose, now i dont even have a reason to wake up.

i know i have to stay strong. i have to! stop having a weak heart georgina!!

your every actions affect me.):

stay strong is what all will say. but, no one knows the heart ache you been through.

you just need to force yourself to be happy. when we know clearly that happiness doesnt need to be forced.

♥ 1:01 AM

theres so many things i really want to tell you but i just lose all the courage to tell you.

i shouldnt disturb you anymore. i shouldnt stopped you from your future. i shouldnt.

but i cant.

♥ 12:56 AM

a bullet through my head will be easier than letting go...

dont walk away leaving me alone. turn back, just turn back.

♥ 12:50 AM

it hurts to see others being happy in their relationship, whereas my ship is sinking ):

2am - cant let you go even if i die

2am - like crazy

♥ 12:25 AM

it hurt my heart greatly, to see us struggling in this mistake we made.

i tried hard to save this relationship, but you refused, maybe you just dont want to see us getting hurt again.

i was devastated, i break down unable to concentrate at work. whenever the phone beep i was hoping you were the one.

you said its enough, and called my name, hurts me further. i refused to give up ended up hating you.

hating you is much more painful then giving up on you. thats when i realised balancing them and making it back to zero will be happier.

but your every movement makes my heart waver everytime, your devastation makes my heart pain. makes me wanna love you again. i hate losing you. but it all depends on you...

Wednesday, February 16, 2011 ♥ 10:38 PM

back to blogging. only blog when i am ecstatic, emotional or just feel like.

well, i am officially single and available. :D just ended a love triangle. which makes me suffer so much through out this 1 year 3months and 16 days.

anyway this is for the one i once loved the most, NXW.

i can still recalled the first time we were together, the memories really lives in my head. it all started in a hospital, ended off with a bang.

you were the one i could really die for, and now, its over.

everything you do it really make an impact in my heart.

even though it doesnt cost much i dont mind, its the thought that count.

you two timed me twice despite being hurt deeply, and being advised to leave, i insist thinking you were the one for me.

i gave your whatever you need but i can never get your heart.

i just get hurt time and again.

hoping you will changed.

you promised you will

but then history repeat again

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i can remember how sweet our anniversary was.

i can also remember how deeply i was hurt too.

how much i love is how much hurt i will get.

the existence of her, just makes me lost control,

i never throw temper infront of your mum and i did it yesterday

i never cry infront of others and i cried loudly.

i never walked angrily and breakdown crying out loud.

i never hurt so badly till i wanted to end my life immediately.

i never did many things and you gave them to me.

you said i was being too demanding to check your wallet check your phone

but you never stand in my position to think that i was just trying to let myself feel secure

you never thought that i just want to reassure myself that you still love me

i always quarrel with you because i want your attention

but you think that i am being crazy like to make noise

but what you never thought of was i might knew something you dont want me to know

you say you dont know how to live without me

apparently you are breathing perfectly.

in this one year 3 months and 16 days i really did enjoy myself at the same time crying my soul out.

thanks for being there for me.

the one who once loved you,

georgina.E