Tuesday, July 28, 2009 ♥ 2:41 AM

my smile had faded to a frown.

i felt terribly bad for what i did. my sins, they are deadly. killer instincts told me i shot someone down instantly. i just feel utterly bad and what so ever with my actions.


in my mind i was thinking

"yea, i was right, i should have said that sooner so that his pain wouldnt hurt more, as in the long run, matters will worsen"

but in my heart i felt

" it was really a huge blow i guess, maybe it was, maybe it wasnt. i wouldnt know. but i still feel bad feeling the change in tone in the text replied"


i was such an A hole, a bad bad person. i dont know. i mean yes i know i should get rid of the tumor before it worsen. its a relief without it, at least i need not worry when it will just gone worse. but now i worry another.

maybe i am just a worrier. maybe maybe not.




the pain is there, for both parties. if i was in his shoes, i can definitely feel the pain. i felt so bad. i felt so guilty.



i realised, i was never suitable for another RS.