Monday, May 18, 2009 ♥ 9:00 PM
.jpg) have you ever thought of what are the things that you have ever done for others and all you get was just a sorry state? sometime i just feel that the world is selfish. i know i mention this before. sometimes you can make all sort of sacrifices for some people but all you had in return was merely being used. as in like a post it. once you served your purpose, CRUSHED, you are into the trash bin for good. and when they realized they need that post it again, they will retrieve you, un-crushed you, pick you up, treat you like god once again. and that happiness was short-term, soon you will join the other trash again. but you are not totally useless, just that you are a recycle trash. in short, I AM A RECYCLE TRASH.dont ask me why. i dont even know it myself. i just felt trashy all of a sudden. recalled back! i realized i am being used quite often. well i dont know. am i just plain stupid? or am i just being treated as a fool or for granted?well it probably got to do with my character, as long as you treat me well with x amount of it. i will return you with 10x amount. yeap thats me. what worst is, i never know how to see peoples character, its probably why i always get used. sometime being used might not be such a bad idea. however i couldnt think of one good reason yet. so, let talk about the bad reason.one could USED another to get to the next.one could USED the other cash for their own uses.one could USED the other feelings to get what they desired.one could MAKE USED of the other to reach their target.ones concern for another could be USED to the other advantages.AM I JUST PLAIN STUPID OR WHAT!? to be used again and again like some recycle paper! i dont even know why am i writing this. maybe _ was right. they used me because i was the only one working at that poingt of time. maybe _ was right, she make used of me to get what she want. maybe my own feeling was right. i choose to be used so that i could make him happy. all the silly things i did, the money i spent, the time i took and the effort i used. the value was defintely high. suddenly i felt that what jin say was rather true. i should just go die la. if dying could help make everyone around me feel better. i wont mind dying and not able to reincarnate again. P.S.jin i am not trying to say its your fault. guys dont feel bad reading what i wrote.
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